2013.5.21 — At the Drive-In

I feel my heart on the pause to look both ways while exiting our parking lot and involuntarily imagine a heart attack or other debilitating event in my vital organs. I am beset by the like and, foot slipping from the brake, I roll perpendicular into the road, unconscious, neck not supporting the eight pounds […]

2013.2.4 — Cotton and Glass

My friend, I’m reading Andrea Dworkin’s memoir, Heartbreak, which I’m sure will come up later in terms of content. I admit with some amount of chagrin that I haven’t read much of her primary work < “And you call yourself a feminist?!” >, but I am enjoying the memoir, nonetheless, because it gives personal context […]

2013.1.15 — 75


The diamond anniversary,

The life expectancy of a US male born in 2006,

470 miles of an interstate in Florida,

The numeric value of a C paper,

The age of Morgan Freeman,

The temperature on a mild spring day;

NOT, the appropriate setting for our thermostat.

Dude, it’s winter. Put some clothes on.


Addendum to this morning’s retrospectively Glee-like conversation singalong:

2013.1.9 — Republican

We were sitting on the couch,
orange cover over the length of it,
tan and tattered underneath,
buttons popped off upholstery
in no pattern
no better place to nap
I said, But please, just please don’t use the word “abandon,”
Never say that I abandoned her,
Never say that I left her
Like I was not coming back
Like love is enough to make anyone stay
Like any way we live is measured by the convention called “normal”

We do not know what will happen in June
It is the unwritten future point past which wondering works against us
We do not know what happens next
Who will be well?
Who will be here?
And what “need” means.

We were briefly quiet,
so I wondered,
then I laughed.
You asked, What’s funny?
Funny is the irony of our circumstances
The many of them that total this:
That each of us is now helping the other live in ways that have been fundamental sources of disagreement since marriage
constitutional departures of view
Helping or preparing to

Later, I drive in the afternoon drizzle.
On the sidewalk, I see the back of a girl small as Olive,
hoodied and high-topped, shouldering a bright backpack,
Immediately, I miss her as if I am gone.
She has no idea.
I put out of my mind what we do not know past June


We are quiet again.
I look over at you on the other corner of the orange couch.
I say, I didn’t even know you still had that sweater.
That blue sweater bought faded and
flaring unreasonably at the waist
Old as our friendship.
Ever since I worked at Banana Republic, you remind me.
I had forgotten.
Of course, it’s fitting, you say; now, not then.
Fitting, I agree.



We Laugh.

2013.1.2 – Broetry


There’s a boutique in Florida, The Chameleon, where your sister used to work and where my mom still shops. I purchased there, on NYE day, a book called Broetry (Brian McGackin). It’s bananas.

Inspired by this book and the SEC loss (UF folded to Louisville in the Sugar Bowl), I’m going to share with you a broem I inadvertently wrote on a Waco to Austin drive in November. This is the height of simulacrum, since Broetry is a selection of poems a la Robert Frost, William Carlos Williams (and a bunch of others I don’t actually recognize) stylized for “dudes,” and this poem is just in the style of that style.

Ah, ah, hem, hem:


Fair Weather Fan

Let’s be honest for a sex,
a sec,
I said, SEC
The Southeastern Conference
The most storied franchise in the conference,
I meant that like “dynasty,”
like the Cowboys
like Emitt Smith–
he was the quarter back when–
Of course, I know their names,
Danny Wuerffel,
Sophomore Heisman Tebow
Chris Leak was a looker when I was in school
My school?
Not a state school
I cheer for my parents’ alma mater
a familial allegiance
go team
The winningest conference
Go, go, go—
Spurrier was their first Heisman,
coached their second
Hey, your offense didn’t show up
It was wild
Shut out
Ours?–top five
I meant defense
like the defensive lie
I said, line
game-changing reception on a third down,
Goooo team!
Beat the Gamecocks
Cock-tail party?
Call it the World’s Largest Outdoor Turnover Party
Driskel couldn’t keep it in the hole
I meant that like “pocket,”
like, tackled
Listen, let’s be honest for a sec
I said, a sec
the length of a two-point conversion attempt
These underwear are cotton,
like the bowl,
like the stubble on my legs,
like astroturf,
Oh. my.
I said Ron Cherry,
calls it like he sees it,
“giving him the business”?
Well. we lost it.
Forced to punt on a holding penalty
I said, punt.
Don’t call me that.